It had been twenty minutes since I turned off my bedroom lights. With my laptop cradled on my crossed legs and my back against the wall, I sat on my bed within the glow of a reflecting lcd screen painting its glow around me; a glow mirrored from it’s own inner digital world. I often write this way when at home within this strange lighting with shadows marginally off to the sides; it seems to help me focus my mind. So within my halo of ambient bedroom light, I sat there staring at the screen, pondering…. at the one sentence I had written: “The most amazing thing happens when I see deeply into a another’s eyes.” So there I was…still…staring….as if the computer screen itself were a pair of eyes! Then finally I realized, I hadn’t moved, nor typed a single word for the past twenty minutes. “What am I doing? I must be tired or …something?”…I sighed to myself. So, as if being nudged by some invisible hand, I put down my laptop, stretched myself out, and surrendered to what seemed an eternal yawn.
Exhausted, I closed my eyes, and let the movie in my head play itself out. With slivers of light reflecting from another world, beckoning me to follow, I surrendered into a pool of love. Where suddenly, I found myself on a beach…again. I could hear the gentle waves of a sparkling sea lapping the glistening sand around me. As if hugging me in its delight of welcoming me home again. And inside this sea where depths lay sleep, I scarcely find the time. Where freckled bits of wit divines this abyss of mine. This sea, itself, is an alluring swirl of twinkling hues…mainly of happy teals, frolicking blues with greens. Then flecks of golden yellows; frisking tawny mellows, to bathe within chocolate pools of brown. Where kindled upon a clear surface of an eternal sea of love. It’s mercy is a mirror! This world is everywhere; but then…is always here!
Yes, this world is always …here… is always …here…now. And, this world is not of time. Everything….being here…right now, has no use for time. Indeed, there is no time…for time.
I could see into the distance; a horizon; a great sphere, a beautiful globe of reds and oranges blushing browns upon its mirror; a planet much in love. Yet, it wasn’t …there… in the distance! It too…is here …now.
Indeed, I seemed to be everywhere; yet always here! The world I viewed outside of myself….is…myself…reflecting me…like a mirror! Looking at myself, I realized that the very fabric of my world…my body…wasn’t really a body at all, but a ball of light. And from this ball of light, which is me, came a sound! A beautiful sound flowing through me, from me, into the world that I was seeing outside of me…yet.. is me too! Yes…the world I am seeing, around me, shining with brilliant hues of light; too, came a sound…the sound…the sound of me! The sound of joy! With this realization came an inner abundance which swelled up within me …from within an exhilarating deep sea of serenity. Which I readily accepted upon the surface of me! Upon the mercy of me! Upon the mirror of me!
“I see you have recognised yourself again,” flowed a tender voice from within, yet all around. Exultantly! I turned my awareness to welcome it…once again! This other light; another light, another sound; another voice; that came to visit me…as it often does… to my world. It’s light shone with such brilliance that I could barely be in its presence.
“It’s you again,” I responded with connected exuberance, “who visits me now and then, and has no name…but why do you only come from time to time…and when you do, I always cry?”
“My dear one, I greet you again” reflected the light, “come here by the sea and place yourself closer to me…and listen…to me.” So I moved closer to it’s light; which was both painful, and full of ecstasy…all within the same space of me! Then with perfect harmony the light’s voice said, “come only as close as you are comfortable dear one….but no further than this…for now. And you may address me by whatever name you feel…if a name it is you need right now.”
“I’m not sure what I need?” I began to cry…
‘Then hear what I have to say…for your heart has opened yet a little more. Are you ready?”
“Yes,” I conceded, “go ahead.”
And so the voice within the light within my dream.. began.
“There is never a moment that my light is not shining within you. The law of light coincides with the law of love; one is the reflection of the other. And the voice of love flows to your earth world over the threshold of an open heart! Where here , its light enlightens those who “are ready” for their …new start. To show them, via their open heart, back to their own light….where there is no separation from being life. Your heart..my beloved…is opening again!
“Then why, light within my dream, do I cry now all the time?”
“My dear one, we receive the light in direct relation to our ability to accept it. With acceptance comes awareness of the “now’. And with awareness of the now comes recognition….of yourself. Which immediately causes the heart …to open! Tears, like tiny mirrors, reflects the light more profusely in announcing it’s flow. It means the door is opening! When one is crying within the acceptance of the “now” …it is a direct reflection of healing…”now.” Therefore, healing is nothing more, nor nothing less, than the capacity to accept the flow of life again…. to enter the stream of love again! This flow resides within your own inner light, like a pool waiting for somewhere to go. When one is crying within the act of healing; one is within the act of ‘crying freely!’ So, within a “renewed flow” all things come to you…by flowing through you…and this is how you come to ‘know’ ….the law of abundance manifesting in your life…in your world!
“Well…perhaps!” I cried emphatically!, “but what of this pain…does it have to hurt so much!”
The world shook with a thunderous laugh from within the light of my dream….”my dear child…the pain only exists to the extent to which you insist….on holding onto it! The pain you experience is merely the metric which measures your resistance to change. Or another way of saying it is…your resistance to acceptance! To the degree that we can accept change is to the degree we can let go of pain….. the law of love states that no other can assist with another’s state of consciousness…unless invited to do so! So you see, my dear one, it is through the crucible of pain that we eventually burn away ….all that is…not us! The question is: how long do you want it to take? For a wonderous world waits to flow through you “now!” to bring to you all the gifts already given via the law of abundance! The good news is: The law of love affords us the freedom to choose where, and how, we wish to focus our flow….and how we wish to experience its expression…through us. This causes us to become aware of an inner joy which is reflected back to us from our outer world…from an outer mirror!”
My heart instantly filled with the flow of a golden stream, pooling there just long enough to spill out into my world. And as I watched this miraculous stream of light and music sing through me, I saw my every fear dissolving upon a massive polished mirror…to disappear with time.
Again, the light within in my dream spoke; and when it did, it lit up the world around me! “I leave you for now, once again, my blessed one… yet, I am never without you. The last thing I will share with you before you wake is this: Love is the polisher of all mirrors. And where love finds you clearly, you’ll find yourself most dearly! We all need each other to witness the wonder of ourselves reflected back to us; in that, we all have the opportunity to learn the law of love. Know this my dear one: Though love is reflected everywhere and from everything; when it comes to human beings, the love of our hearts wise is reflected from the other’s eyes!
And with one last cosmic breath, before the light within my dream faded to another world, it said; “when you wake, you won’t remember much of this right away, for you’ll be back in a world of “time” again. But you will…yes..you will..in time. However… you will have a feeling of me! And you will ‘feel me” drawing you closer to me. So for now…go forth my dear one…and may the blessings be!
I woke up with a start! When my bedroom came into focus, I realized my laptop, still casting its digital light beside me, was still by my side. Aware that I had fallen asleep, I raised my self up and leaned towards my computer and once again, read what it said: “The most amazing thing happens when I see deeply into a another’s eyes.” Somewhat bemused, I felt a warmth in my heart; then… suddenly…realized… I was crying….but didn’t know why? I got up, turned on the lights, looked into the mirror and gazed streaming tears flowing down my face. I didn’t understand why?….really? ….but had a feeling ….that somehow, “now”….I was crying freely!
Randy Quickfall ღƪ(ˆ◡ˆ)ʃ ☼
Randy.. 🙂
love flows
the world glows
your words
will me
with such beautiful wonder
I’m so glad Dan said say hello 🙂
I’m so glad I’ve come on the wild journey
that our paths intersected 🙂
my breakthrough with my open heart
came in the shower..
slumped in the tub
crying unstopable for almost half an hour
until the voice said
‘love…get up…you are not drowning…you are a fabulous swimmer ‘
I stood and saw everything I’ve walked through in my life
when so many that i know have left, many by their own hands
and I am still here
still strong’
infact, stronger than ever…
and I laughed in the tears…
and thanked the Universe for waking me up to Russell Brand… had it not been for that moment in time
I would not be here talking to you
have a fabulous day my friend
singing in the world with you
playing int the stream of love
your friend eternally
June, what a beautiful comment! Your heart sings freely here my friend and it brings such beautiful music to my ears. Thankyou for sharing your heart; it gives the strength and courage for me to always follow my heart too. It is not where we’ve been my dear friend; it is where we are going, and that is always a choice we make. So yes! Let us, by accepting the glory of ourselves, all rise from the ashes of “what doesn’t matter anymore” and blaze our way to our own light that eternally shines bright in the now ☼ {{{Hugs to you my friend}}} ♥
You are very much a philosophic, deep thinker…. I struggle to understand your words because I am so unlike you. I am pragmatic rolled in pessimism…with a gooey optimistic core. Sounds contradictory? Welcome to my world.
You create a such a lovely world of peace, love, and acceptance. Very zen, very in touch with God. I admit, I am not that in-touch with all of the emotions in this world, within me and around me. I am emotional, but I don’t address in the same way.
Interestingly enough, when you write, I see the colors, I hear the lapping of the ocean, I smell and taste the scene.
🙂 Cheers, Lisa
Wonderful Lisa! Who I just want to give a great big hug to because you are so…You! I love your beautiful vision of yourself… straight from the ♥! Who never lets fear get in the way of letting others know exactly how she “feels” in the now! There is so much I can learn from you my dear friend; a wonderful mirror too see myself in! By the way, I’ll let you in on a little secret of mine when I’m writing. When I write, I rarely “think’ about it…I just let it flow as it comes out. Heck, from a thinking point of view, I probably don’t understand much of it either. However, when I choose to accept the “feeling” of it…well, it just seems to fall into place. And that place ♥ just “feels” right to me. So there you go..my little secret, just between you and me…don’t tell anybody. lol Thanks for visiting my world Lisa. I look forward to visiting your kickass blog again soon too..lol..see, that is the way you would say it…am I right?.☼.May my ☼ shine on you always ☼
Randy, you are such a wonderful spirit. What a nice place it must be, inside your head. You and I, I think, are yin and yang. A lovely blend! I’ll have to read this blog again …
Thankyou Susie. Your comment warms my heart! And I too enjoy your wonderful blog and sense of humor…you are definately one funny chick..lol..which is A-OK with me!! Laughs are the breeze that fans the glee within me ☼ Thankyou Susie! And congrats again on getting to write the screenplay adaptation of your favourite novel, “The Dwelling.” I’m so excited for you! You’re on a roll my friend! Your flow is on the go, so on with the show!!!!!
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Beautiful words reflecting a beautiful soul. Reminds me of these words by Tolkien “And all the host laughed and wept, and in the midst of their merriment and tears the clear voice of a minstrel rose like silver and gold, and all men were hushed. And he sang to them, now in the Elven-tongue, now in the speech of the West, until their hearts, wounded with sweet words, overflowed, and their joy was like swords, and they passed in thought out to regions where pain and delight flow together and tears are the very wine of blessedness.”
Thank you, Randy, for your beautiful words.
chiaink…one of my dearest teachers whose art teaches my ♥ to always reflect the truth! What an incredible honor to be associated with Tolkien! By far, one of the gods of the fantasy literary world for sure by my standards!! If my light comes into this world at even a fraction of the brilliance of this amazing master, I will consider myself upon a sufficiently illuminated path to discover the many open ♥’s to reflect myself… off the mirror of the their love. Indeed, may the voice of my ♥ always speak for me. And may my audience of all open ♥’s invite me freely…to see me! The amazing thing about truth is…its gift is only revealed…when it is accepted. And when acceptance in the now happens…miracles happen! May the King be: The miracle of an open ♥! Thankyou chiaink for inspiring my ♥ to open that much more to allow The Return of the King! ƪ(ˆ◡ˆ)ʃ☼
An incredible beautiful journey leading to a wonderful discovery. I think we’ve all taken this journey in one form or another at some point in our lives.
“There is a crack in everything. That’s how the light gets in.” ~ Leonard Cohen
Thankyou Diana. Yes, I believe so too! Perhaps that realization is more fully realized when we learn how to let the light find its way into our world through our ♥’s? I sometimes feel that we don’t belong to this world and that we are only visiting it for awhile. Maybe that is part of the journey? Thanks for this great quote form Leonard Cohen by the way…another great poet! I love it! And Diana, thanks so much for all those wonderful tumblrs of yours; they often make the difference to my day! Keep the love flowing my friend! ♥ ☼
This is the post I was talking about last night on FB.
Hope it helps.
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Thanks for your link Viv, I found it a very interesting read! Often, I have find myself contemplating that still silence that seems to exist deep withing everything. And several times I have written about it too. How does one find the words that can even remotely due justice to this amazing “non-space’ or “non-place” as I have many times referred to it within myself. The best we can do as writers, I suspect, is be the gentle nudge that inspires others to find it within themselves. When this gentle nudge happens to me; then yes, I definitely find it helpful! Thanks again Viv for visiting me. You are always welcome here! ☼
I haven’t got words to say how much I appreciated this post, and you for writing it. It is exactly what I needed to read. Thank you.
Your words here Josie says it all for me! Thankyou so much; very nice to hear! Please come back again as often as you like! 🙂
Le devoir del’homme est de ne pas gaspiller sa force.
Ne pas user son corps en laissant l’excès l’écraser.
Car l’homme est un tout.
La pensée n’est pas claire,la volonté n’est pas inébranlable quand le corps est alourdi.
La pensée est comme une eau.
Elle peut être troublée,rendue boueuse,si le corps lui-même se trouble et se remplit de boue.
Translation:
The duty del’homme is not wasting his strength.
Do not use his body, with excess crush.
For man is everything.
Thought is not clear, the will is not unshakeable when the body is increased.
The thought is like water.
It can be disturbed, made muddy, if the body itself is troubled and filled with mud.
Randy, This post was awe-inspiring. Serene and it felt like my mind acquired wings and took me on an eternal flight.. The world you describe in here, the feelings in it.. is so very beautiful. As I read this post, did feel that this writing cannot be written by someone wanting to write thus.. It seemed to’ve been inspired from within… Finding oneself within; to blend with love and light… blissful expressions. This is a gripping read and definitely worth reading again (as i read in another comment here)…. And also, loved reading through the comments and your responses to them. Am glad that I came back here and took time to read this. I’d try to catch up with as much of your writing as possible.
cheers
Thank you so much Sitaraman for these very kind words of yours!! I do feel as though I take flight, as you say, when I write! There is a part of each of us, yet not a part at all, for it is whole, that seems to transcend the limitations of time and space….and it here that I go when I write! I am so happy that you were able to share in a small piece of this journey with me my dear friend!! Thank you again for your comment!! 🙂